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children went to bed later than they normally would have. I went outside after him but he was nowhere in sight. He finally came home at around 11.30pm. He said he was sorry, but he was just so sick of his younger brother. I sat down and talked to him, trying to remind him that a large part of Shaun's behavior, was a spiritual attack. I reminded him, that we were both, playing into what Satan wanted. We had both, felt bad feelings about Shaun and each other.

I felt God talking to me and I asked Michael if he wanted to hear, what I felt God was saying and he said, he did. I felt that God wanted us to pray together, but first, we both needed to repent, of all the anger and bad feelings that we had been feeling over the past week. Michael, did not have to go to school the next day and so we sat in my bed praying together for about an hour.

The next day we woke up and Shaun was a new person. He apologized to Michael and I just knew that the spiritual influence over Shaun, was no longer there, but by the end of the day, Michael's behavior went downhill. Four days later and it was still terrible. I did not feel that it was spiritual this time.

A friend from church and I had talked about doing a parenting course awhile ago and we had been waiting for the information. She finally received the information- a huge folder, with the heading Smart Parenting. I came home and started reading it. It was amazing. I realized something that I am not proud to admit, but I am going to. I realized, that I blamed my children, for their bad behavior, instead of my bad parenting habits. The information in this folder showed different types, of parenting types and the effects of them. It spoke, of the unconditional love that we owe our children and I realized that I didn't have it. So many of my ways were detrimental, to their having the healthy upbringing that they deserved. I realized that a lot of the information in the folder, was of what God had already been trying to teach me, during the year, but seeing it in black and white, it just brought out the urgency, the need for me to get it right.

Jesus, has given me a great starting point. Without him, I would not have started here and yet I realize now, that this is the most important place to start. For Jesus to teach me, how to love my children, unconditionally, is so great. Before this, I never even knew, that I blamed my children for my mistakes and I could have gone through my whole life, never realizing this, if it wasn't for God.