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I decided to start packing. It gave me something to do and I decided to do a good clearing out at the same time. I was going through my cupboard, when I came across something, I had totally forgot I even had. My Crystal Ball. I held the ball and thought of God and I knew it had to go. This Crystal ball meant a lot to me. My husband had bought it for me one Christmas, after much pleading on my behalf. It cost him nearly $400.00 and I just could not bring myself to throw it out. In the end, I decided to put it under the house and just leave it there. I told my friend about it and she told me I had to get rid of it, but I couldn't.

The weeks went by. At church, they had announced that they were going to do Baptisms on the Easter Sunday. I told them to put me down. I really wanted to be baptized and I just thought, "what a great day to be baptized." The weeks went by and Easter Sunday was getting closer. The Crystal ball kept coming to my mind, but I just couldn't bring myself to throw it away. I thought of giving it to a friend of mine in the New Age, but I couldn't do that either. Although I knew she would have loved it, I could no longer encourage her involvement by giving her the Crystal Ball.

Easter Sunday was only four days away . I went and retrieved the Crystal ball from under the house. It was now or never, as tonight was rubbish night. I felt bad that it was so hard to throw it away. I had only ever used the thing once and it hurt my eyes, so I hadn't bothered using it again. This was precious to me, because it was a nice memory from my husband, instead of a painful one. This showed me that he had loved me once. I struggled. I loved God and I knew I wanted him more than the Crystal ball. I felt guilty that I was even going through this struggle, but thanks to my friend, I knew that God understood and loved me any way. I finally threw it in the bin and ran inside so I wouldn't me tempted to get it back out.

Matt 6:21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

The next morning I awoke to a new sense of freedom. Now that the crystal ball was gone, I realized that it hadn't really meant anything at all. I was just using it as a thread to hang on to. I was treasuring a lie. I was so thankful that I had finally thrown it away. I spent the whole day thanking God because he understood how hard it was and didn't condemn me for the fact, that it was so hard.

I had spent the last three weeks writing a testimony for my Baptism. Finally, after re- writing many times I was able to finish it. I didn't know what to expect on my baptism. A friend Joan who I had met through Lisa at Church, offered to baptize me. It was really great. The water was so deep. I had to almost swim to the surface. Wow! what an experience to be, 'born again' in Jesus. A "New Me" I was happy.