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Sometimes when I allowed myself to feel, I would feel his great love for me. I would feel Jesus standing there with his arms out trying to love me. I saw him with tears in his eyes because he was feeling my pain. He knew how much I hurt and it hurt him that I was hurting. He knew that if I would only turn to him, he could and would set me free from all my pain. I am so thankful for these times, because thanks to Jesus they brought me to repentance. So many times I rejected that love. I left him standing there feeling my pain, hurting for me and I just turned my back and said it was his fault. At times, I blamed him. I felt that if he really loved me, he would give me my husband back. He took it all. Can you believe that? He just took it all.

During one of these times, that God brought me back to him. I was praying one night and whilst I was praying I could actually feel Gods angels in heaven rejoicing with Jesus because they were happy, that I could now be helped. I felt so blessed that God had chosen me to love.

I had never, really had an interest in "The Book of Revelations" in the Bible, but after this I felt a strong urge to read it. I had always felt that when Jesus comes again, he comes, and it was already written that no one would know when, so what was the point in me reading it? Plus, I could never understand anything after the first two pages, so I never got passed that point.

I got out my son's easy to understand Bible, and started reading. As I was reading through every word, all I could feel was Gods Greatness, Mightiness and Power it was written through out the whole book of Revelations. By the time I had gotten through it, I had learned another side to God that I never knew.

When I went to bed that night, I started to pray and then something strange happened. I was praying and whilst I was praying it seemed as if every thing suddenly stopped. Everything to do with all the events God was involved with, in the heavenly's, went into the background and God was not only hearing my prayer, but, was taking it into consideration.

I poured out so much to him, because for the first time, God was revealing to me what happens when we pray. I made it a point that no matter what I was praying for, that I wanted him only to do what was his will and not mine, but whilst I had such a great opportunity I let nothing slip by. I asked him to deliver my whole family and not just me. If I lost my ex-husband forever in the process and that was his will, then so be it. I could live with that, with Jesus by my side, but I didn't want to go on forever knowing that my eldest son and my ex-husband could be lost to him.