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I didn't have to wait long, that night my friends were out and I was up by myself. I went outside. I was standing outside when all of a sudden I felt that Jesus himself came to me and asked me to follow him. To give up every worldly thing, everything I thought I wanted. My past and everyone in it, my own hopes for my future and follow him. It was as if, he was there in person standing in front of me, as he did with his disciples and asking me to follow him. I didn't know what to think. I was pacing up and down. I was thinking- Can I give up everything? Did I have it in me? I was afraid, I didn't know what to think. I knew I could not say no, but I didn't know if I could do it. I just knew that if I said yes, I had to mean it and really mean it and not just half mean it. I thought, that if I say yes, but first I want to know what you want me to do with my life, it would not be the right answer.

I kept thinking about it and apologizing for taking so long, to give him my answer and pleading him to forgive me. I just knew I couldn't say no, but I didn't know how to say yes either, so in the end I said, "Jesus if you will be with me and help me every single step of the way, then I know I can say yes and mean it. I want you as my Lord and I give up everything including my husband and everything for you willingly, because I trust you Lord and I know that if you are with me, helping me every step of the way that I can honor my yes." I just knew that he had excepted my answer. I could feel him within me so strongly, telling me his truths and I fully realized that the only way to God was through Jesus, because I just knew that no one knows God, as Jesus does. He is the only way. (I knew this before because I had read it in the Bible) but now I really knew it, through this experience.

Not long after this, a Ministry house finally came up for us, it was a four-bedroom house in Blackburn South. The children and I went to see it. It was great. I loved it. It was only ten years old. The fourth bedroom was a Sleep out, out the back with its own bathroom. My eldest son loved it. The garden was bare. It had only a couple of small trees out the front and a bush, which I new would not be there much longer. I always wanted a garden with nothing in it, so that I could do my own thing. This house was perfect. The only flaw was that it was smaller, than what I was used to and the carpet. I hated the carpet it was a cheap looking dark grey, but I could live with that. We moved in the following weekend. To be back in my own place again, felt great. We had a fresh start, in our new house that God provided.

A few weeks later I tried a new church. The Burwood Life Center. It was the closest to me in the Melways. I went along it was small compared to some of the ones I had tried. I was so nervous and felt shy. Afterwards they had tea and coffee. I didn't know what to do, so I did the easiest. I started looking at some photos on the wall.