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control, I will be living in the 'Truth' No more lies or false realities. I am living in the truth. The magnitude of the effect this has on the remainder of my life blows me away. The potential I now have is amazing, even to me. The hope and trust, I have at this moment is so great "Amazing Grace".
When I read from the New Testament afterwards the words took on a whole new meaning and truth, because I am living in it. I captured every word I read, as being so precious, because I know that it's the truth. God has revealed so much to me in the last couple of weeks. I can't even imagine, that God has only just begun to reveal his truths and that there are so many more that I don't even know and each one will set me, more free than I am now. I can't imagine being any more free, but I look forward to each new day in God thanks to my Lord, Savior and King, Jesus.

I spent the next 10-min. crying, because I realized why I had hung on to my ex-husband for so long, but it wasn't him that I wanted, it was God. All these years, in fact, all my life I wanted God and now I can finally confirm it in my soul. I can't believe this; I have finally got what I've been searching for. My search has finally ended. I can't believe all the wrong places my search took me, especially my ex-husband. I am so thankful, that God has forgiven me, for my relationship with my ex-husband. I know I loved him, but I now realize what I did to him. I also know that I love him still, but its okay because I don't need him. I have whom I need in God. If only I knew then, what I know now. However, it's okay because I know now and God is with me, so I can handle my loss right now and set him free in love. I know the love I have for God and the separate love I have for my ex-husband, the way it should have been. I know my love for God is stronger. I can live without my ex-husband, but I can't live without God.

During the next month, I began to really think about marriage, a Christian marriage. I asked different people about it and received some slightly different views, but out of it came an understanding of what I now wanted in a marriage. A Christian marriage could be so different to the marriage I knew. A couple coming together with the love of God between them just seemed so beautiful. It also made me realize the difficulty involved in making a decision to marry someone because God has to be involved.

control, I will be living in the 'Truth' No more lies or false realities. I am living in the truth. The magnitude of the effect this has on the remainder of my life blows me away. The potential I now have is amazing, even to me. The hope and trust, I have at this moment is so great "Amazing Grace".
When I read from the New Testament afterwards the words took on a whole new meaning and truth, because I am living in it. I captured every word I read, as being so precious, because I know that it's the truth. God has revealed so much to me in the last couple of weeks. I can't even imagine, that God has only just begun to reveal his truths and that there are so many more that I don't even know and each one will set me, more free than I am now. I can't imagine being any more free, but I look forward to each new day in God thanks to my Lord, Savior and King, Jesus.

I spent the next 10-min. crying, because I realized why I had hung on to my ex-husband for so long, but it wasn't him that I wanted, it was God. All these years, in fact, all my life I wanted God and now I can finally confirm it in my soul. I can't believe this; I have finally got what I've been searching for. My search has finally ended. I can't believe all the wrong places my search took me, especially my ex-husband. I am so thankful, that God has forgiven me, for my relationship with my ex-husband. I know I loved him, but I now realize what I did to him. I also know that I love him still, but its okay because I don't need him. I have whom I need in God. If only I knew then, what I know now. However, it's okay because I know now and God is with me, so I can handle my loss right now and set him free in love. I know the love I have for God and the separate love I have for my ex-husband, the way it should have been. I know my love for God is stronger. I can live without my ex-husband, but I can't live without God.

During the next month, I began to really think about marriage, a Christian marriage. I asked different people about it and received some slightly different views, but out of it came an understanding of what I now wanted in a marriage. A Christian marriage could be so different to the marriage I knew. A couple coming together with the love of God between them just seemed so beautiful. It also made me realize the difficulty involved in making a decision to marry someone because God has to be involved.

Then I looked at my own predicament and realized for the first time, the sin I committed when I married my husband and that even if we did ever remarry it wouldn't be right. I shouldn't have married him in the first place. I could see how much my life before I came to God, has messed up any future hope for any remarriage to any one for me, although I know I want to marry again someday, there is no answer that is right for me.
I felt distressed and very sorry that I had ever married and I understood where my sin leaded me.